Ugh X 20 and a heif
I had a lenghthy IM conversation with Angela after work today. She says that life is like a spiral.... I just say it's stupid how retarded people are; me in particular. Making the same dumbass mistakes over and over and over again. Yes the names change but the MO is always the same. The funny thing, at this point I can't even remember what an MO is.... I just new it fit in that spot.
Ok, I was stuck trying to remember what MO is in Latin; Modus Operandi (thank you wikipedia)!
There's nothing like finding old blogs to realize that nothing has changed, nothing has been resolved, and I am still stuck in the bog of life spinning my wheels.
Words that tend to be repeated in my old blogs are as follows: Hermit, alone, decay, pain.... and there are others. I could do a MYSQL query to figure it out but after I figure out how to run the query, I think I'll be on a lower rung of happy.
Materialistic happiness: Hopefully the MacBook Pros will be showing up sometime soon at work. At least that'll give my mind something else to play with. I still find it sad that at almost 27, I find solice in video games. Kill, kill, kill, blow shit up, play an RPG with chunky SNESchool graphics like FFII to avoid reality.
Perhaps it's time for me to start painting..... again again. Yes, that is redundant but such is life.
Oooh, ooh! Maybe some shock therapy can blow some circuits and I can find happiness and drop my IQ by a few points. With my luck I'd become even more disassociated with the reality that for some reason I've chosen to live in.
Ok, I was stuck trying to remember what MO is in Latin; Modus Operandi (thank you wikipedia)!
There's nothing like finding old blogs to realize that nothing has changed, nothing has been resolved, and I am still stuck in the bog of life spinning my wheels.
Words that tend to be repeated in my old blogs are as follows: Hermit, alone, decay, pain.... and there are others. I could do a MYSQL query to figure it out but after I figure out how to run the query, I think I'll be on a lower rung of happy.
Materialistic happiness: Hopefully the MacBook Pros will be showing up sometime soon at work. At least that'll give my mind something else to play with. I still find it sad that at almost 27, I find solice in video games. Kill, kill, kill, blow shit up, play an RPG with chunky SNESchool graphics like FFII to avoid reality.
Perhaps it's time for me to start painting..... again again. Yes, that is redundant but such is life.
Oooh, ooh! Maybe some shock therapy can blow some circuits and I can find happiness and drop my IQ by a few points. With my luck I'd become even more disassociated with the reality that for some reason I've chosen to live in.
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