Rambling Soul Search

Delve into my soul;
Search hard and you can find my heart.
Locked deep underneath
Everything I have been was torn apart.

The new me; a half being
Desparate to find what will make me complete.
Wondering if I've found it...
How do I know if this is what I need?

Lost and wandering inside this shell
Knowing if I take a wrong turn;
Making sure my footing is well.
If not it'll be my personal hell.

All the puzzle pieces will fit together
I know this but it keeps getting harder.
How long will it take out of forever
To be whole and allow my heart to grow fonder.

The decomposing mess that weighs my heart
Down washes away and removes my sorrow.
What once filled me is gone; 
Now I'm hollow.

Time marches on while I stay frozen
Locked in a mental state
You probably don't care, but I'll elaborate...
Something with me is broken.

Everyone else I know is moving forward
I have a career that is great and I enjoy
But one piece of life I reach toward needing
Treats me like an object to play; a toy.

Press play for me, I'm sick of pause
And I can't reach the button

You and me...
Together can find what we need
Solve each other's problems
Filling up the empty.