Desert Mesas

Desert Mesas
Originally uploaded by GildeMontes.

Hey, at least it's not made out of mashed potatoes. Less than an hour into it.

Robert

Heaven to Earth 1993
Roberto Gil de Montes
My second cousin's work in the 7th st. Metro Center. Maybe I can get a break someday.

I'm so done

Someone I really care about is over personalizing what I write in this so............

No more writing. This will be a photo blog until further notice. The one person I really would want to go with me to the NIN concert is not a NIN fan and has to work so I asked my buddy Brian if he wanted to go.

Sketching...

I've been sketching today. The only problem is nothing seems good enough to take to the next step (painting). I need some theme ideas. Anyone have any suggestions? LET ME KNOW!

A couple sketches that came out revisiting some prior ideas.

Work

Today was a minimum day. After classes were over, Craig & I went to Alcapulcos for the all you can eat lunch..... I ate too much. On the plus side, I also weighed in for the weight loss group. According to the scale, fully clothed and wearing shoes, I weighed 228 lbs. My goal is to drop at least another 28 lbs. If I can do that I think I'll be in fairly good shape.

My workout today kicked my ass. 10 minutes on the stair stepper, 40 minutes on the treadmill.

Old Poetry

I found this the other day and decided to repost it. The original author is me in a completely drunken state:

Lost in My Mind

I've been lost much like doing time
Everything I see is so sublime
My melancholic madness seems deepening
Prying through my brain, thoughts keep seeping.

Reality is only a dream from which I do not wake;
I just hope that someday I will, for my own sake
The endless winter disguised as summer torments me
Something is growing on me; it might be killing me.

Treading through the life that I should thrash
Tears are hidden as I battle through the ash.
Artistic freedom is my only escape
That is the only thing noone can take

Or destroy because what is mine is mine
It all occurs in my mind.
What is in here people should not see
Because they might think it is insanity.

Want to know the real secret nobody ever tells?
I doubt I'm the first to blow the whisle, or ring the bells.
The way things change I am still the same
Others just modify the rules & don't tell me how to play the game.
2002-05-23 00:29:51

Funny

It's funny how things that would be interesting become no longer relevant...

It's challenging how you think something is so perfect and try not to screw it up (which makes it more prone to happen).

It's amazing how meeting someone can make your life flip inside out while staying the same.

It's terrifying how something can become so important in such a short time.

Bliss is something I do not know
Caring is something I have become used to no having shown.

Revenge of the Excercise

I restarted my workout regiment today. According to my scale I'm weighing in at 218. I'm happy enough with what I'm weighing, but I know that if I get back down to 200 or below I'll feel even better.

Today's stats:
3.5 miles, 50 reps (5 sets of 10) of 135lbs on the mechanical bench.

Friday is the next workout day. I'm sure I'll hit my goal in October. I just have no desire to be "bulky" like I was when I was 225 with 4.5% body fat. Just trimmed down and not really compromise my life style. The only adjustment I've really made is the lack of eating red meat all of the time. I only have about a burger per week now and it's been that way for a few months now.

Creed....

I was thinking about the fraternity's creed and wondering how many people actually follow it. If you don't know I'm an alumnus of the Sigma Pi Fraternity International's Beta-Tau chapter....

I believe in Sigma Pi
A fellowship of kindred minds
United in brotherhood
To advance truth and justice
Promote scholarship, encourage chivalry,
To diffuse culture and develop character
In the service of God and man
And I will strive to make real the Fraternity's ideals in my own daily life.

Strong words I've lived by since 97.

Fixed?

My problems seem to have faded away like a distant memory. I think a good part of it is the fact that I needed a nap BADLY. I fell asleep on the couch after I got home. I had a nice hour long nap and feel a hell of a lot better. My brain is no longer wrapping its tendrils around things that I have no point in consuming.

I talked to Kym and she said I didn't seem like myself and she's right. I haven't been myself today. Time to eat dinner.

What's Wrong With Me?

Seriously.... I need to figure this out; something has come over me like an illness making me someone I am not. I need to find myself again; recenter myself, reflect on who I am, what I am, and where I am going.

Thank God I have a whole month coming up to do so without the intrusion of work.

"You could have it all.....
My empire of dirt.

I will let you down,
I will make you hurt."

All That Could Have Been

Breeze still carries the sound
Maybe I'll disappear
Tracks will fade in the snow
You won't find me here

Ice is starting to form
Ending what had begun
I am locked in my head
With what I've done
I know you tried to rescue me
Didn't let anyone get in
Left with a trace of all that was
And all that could have been

Please
Take this
And run far away
Far away from me
I am
Tainted
The two of us
Were never meant to be
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me
Gone fading everything
And all that could have been

Please
Take this
And run far away
Far as you can see
I am
Tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
Were never meant for me
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me

Giddy as a School Girl

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Originally uploaded by GildeMontes.

Darren really enjoyed how close we were (the pits) for time trials.

NASCAR West Damage

NASCAR West Damage
Originally uploaded by GildeMontes.

This is exactly why I'll never be allowed to drive a NASCAR.... I love the body work though!