@ Darren's

Well, I've been at Darren's all afternoon. Tomorrow is the BBQ, not today. I feel like I know where I stand with Rachael which makes me feel very good.

Happiness is...

Inner peace, companionship, accomplishment, balance.
I'm out of balance, but perhaps now that my ankle is healed enough, this new workout routine will solve that problem. Things are changing too fast to keep up. Currently the music of Steve Miller Band and Incubus are filling the spaces I occupy. Small things are made to be big, why oh why Alice do you drag me down the rabbit hole with you?

Life isn't real; it's surreal. Things are always in motion to stop me from being able to figure things out. I'm hoping for the new job..... But if things crumble, I have shoulders to lean on in Chicago. Maybe I should just go. I took a gamble this month, and it hasn't paid off. Chicago or hermitdom; time will tell the story. I just have to remind myself that everything happens for a reason. In honor of failure I have a new tattoo idea...... Here is the idea Be sure to read it upside down and right side up..... It's an ambigram. Two sayings out of one word. I think it'll fit nicely over my right forearm.

It's time to have a beer or two to forget about life for a while.

It Figures

This euphoric level of happiness I have had for the last month and a half I think is coming to an end. I'm not in the eye of the storm observing the destruction around me. I'm at the edge of the peaceful center and the chaos surrounding the center. During this time I've met an unbelievable woman, but now she wants to not talk to me until her problems are resolved. If you put life on hold like that, you aren't really living. I should have figured something like this would happen. Perhaps it is time to return to hermitdom.... Actually I can't do that. If I do I'll even be in a worse position. It's seriously time for me to think about how to keep myself centered on what my goals are and ignore everything else.