Bears vs. Colts

Ok, Bears won and then after a crazy defecit, the Colts came back and won their game. The Superbowl I've been hoping for is going to happen. I'm willing to admit after the Bears won, I got a bit teary eyed. With both teams in, even if my team loses, I'll still be happy. Both coaches are known to be good men; not assholes. It proves more than a decent person with character can coach a winning team... It gives all of us hope against the assholes and stupidity in the world.

As for me, this was the tip of the iceberg for a wonderful first week of being single. No bullshit to deal with, work is excellent, and my favorite two NFL teams are playing each other in two weeks. I can't ask for much more.

Project

Project
Originally uploaded by GildeMontes.

Artwork that I destroyed instead of completing after the breakup. It felt good to destroy instead of create for once.

Return to Work

It's great to be back at work. As lame as it sounds I missed the kids. Today went by pretty fast; even though prep wasn't until the end of the day.

1st Ween song to play on random today:
Help Me Scrape the Mucus Off My Brain

iTunes Reads My Mind...

Ok, the last few songs to play in iTunes for me on random are as follows:
Changes - David Bowie
Drifter in the Dark - Ween
Blood on the Ground - Incubus...

If you know the lyrics you understand why I find that trio in order like that to be incredibly funny.

One Quick Note....

Go Bears!

The Aftermath

Today, Shaunie called in the morning to apologize for her behavior. Whatever. I'm still done. No more of that crap for me. I went to Dave's and we brewed some beer with Paul. Justin & Megan got there after we started. Megan is going to get me a Starbucks apron for use at work. That'll be pretty freakin' sweet. Paul, Liz, Frodo & Jen went to Shaunie's right after I left last night expecting all of us to hang out (until I called Paul right after I left). Apparently all she did all night was bitch about me. Heh, the irony is that everyone knows that she is the one that was fucked up with our whole situation. I saw a Mike Judge movie called Idiocracy.... Seriously it's a stupid movie but worth watching. I love his satirical look at the world from Bevis & Butthead, King of the Hill, Office Space, and this movie. All are so true in their own right. I'm now home, it's about 11:30 and I'm going to put my sheets on my bed, play some Wii, and go to bed. Justin is a big Seahawks fan since he's from Seattle. Obviously I'm a big Bears fan. Our teams play tomorrow at 10 AM and we'll be hanging out at Lake Alice to watch the game.

I'm tired of this web layout. maybe I'll do some alterations on MLK Day...

No More Shaunie

She had a work thing tonight and decided to keep on attacking me. She was mad about me walking away. The bottom line is that things weren't working for us. She wanted me to do things in ways that is not me. At the same time, I wasn't happy with various things with her; such as tonight, she had been drinking for over 5 hours and then decides to personally attack me consistently and say that she doesn't want to get into a fight. I walked away. She never really cared; thus proving my point.

Last Night...

I went to Joanne's art opening with her, Shaunie, & Tennile. It was a good experience. Afterwards Shaun & I had a long conversation and I think we have things straightened out. As opposed to feeling like in the past that we're just running in circles, this one went somewhere and she too is happy about how that conversation went. We have a direction and we will take it one day at a time. Tomorrow I'll be taking her to Idyllwild to walk around & window shop, and also eat lunch. in a little over an hour I'll be giving Joanne an art lesson in how to draw eyes and lips.

Relationships

Relationships are something that is undefinable, unpredictable, and confusing. Shaun today talked about how we don't go out on dates or do anything. The irony of this is the fact that:
#1. After the series of problems we've had, I thought we were done.
#2. Lacking of any kind of affection by her, what does she expect me to do; get more involved in the relationship?
#3. When she doesn't appear that interested in me except as a form of labor, how am I supposed to look at things?
We'll see where things go. I still think that after she said she'd call on New Year's Eve (around 4:30PM) when she gets home and states it won't be long.... Yet she never calls and then tells me afterwards that she got home at 10:45 PM when knowing I was leaving to go to a New Year's Eve party at 8:30, and she was at a bar that I'm not important. Whatever. I'm not going to bring it up.

Happy Fucking 2007

Ok, looks like I'm back here. I have decided that I may be done with Shaunie. The woman I fell in love with isn't the woman she always is. When she gets drinking heavily, she gets to be someone I don't like. We've been trying to work it out, but I'm not going to be her babysitter, I'm not going to be her knight in shining armor, and I'm not willing to change me for anything. What does that mean? Work is to remain number one. I'm not going to waste time on anyone who is a waste of my time.

My energy level when it regards women will be minimal unless I think things will go somewhere. I always felt that way but now after this experiment (read MISTAKE).... The gamut of how this whole thing works out is different than it used to be.

Happy fucking 2007.