Great Day!

Well, I met some of the other teachers from Arroyo. They are all really cool. Carrie was flirting with me today. It was fun to meet her and the other new teachers. I have a good feeling about working there.

Today

Well, it all started right before bed last night when I got an e-mail from Kate. If she reads this, she’ll get pissed but I don’t care. I asked Anna to retrieve my letters since somebody wouldn’t talk to me there and said my letters were \"dirty\" when I was in PA. She accused me of writing about her (which I haven’t done since I got back from my trip). Whatever I really don’t care. Today I got an e-mail trying to ORDER me to not talk to Anna. Hey, it’s up to her, not Kate. All I want is my goddamn letters back.

In other news, life has sucked for everyone here today in some way shape or form. I start work tomorrow which will rock.

Q. How does a Dodge Neon in Coachella get a parking ticket over 120 miles away?

A. It doesn’t! Somehow it did happen though. The issue should be rectified in the next week though.

Random Aggression

Agressive and assertive are now my ways
People don’t understand it from past days
It doesn’t matter now and never will again
They don’t understand it now,
But long ago was the end.

Write about things happening to me now
People try to figure out how
Things fit to their own life
I don’t care because that they think they’re right

Freed long ago from the pain or sorrow
Today is now tomorrow
Listening to the ghosts of the past whine
I really love it now, oh it’s time

Time for erosion;
Time for decay
Time for corrosion;
It’s another day

New Car

Well, we couldn’t find anything in dad’s price range. Here was the solution. I now have a 2002 Neon R/T. I’ll be helping dad with the payment on the other Neon. So, today was a fairly productive day I guess you could say. Everything else is going smoothly. In the morning I need to run the rest of my new hire paperwork to San Bernardino so that I’ll be all set to start on Tuesday.

Oh, it turns out that Chris’ grandparents were one of the 4 winning lotto tickets. Good for them. I’m always glad to hear about good things happening to good people.

Car Shopping?

OK, didn’t go car shopping for dad today. We need to solve the vehicle problem before tuesday. I’m to the point where I’m about ready to say "You’re getting divorced. Take the car. Hell as far as I care you can split the payments too." I don’t really drive the damn thing anymore anyway. I’ll get a street bike or some other vehicle.

Parodies & Stuff

Ok, I’m heading to bed really early tonight. I have to get fingerprinted in the morning. So, for those who are curious or actually read my site I have a treat for you.... My next t-shirt design. There will only be a few of these babies made. Here is the link! Can you guess what I drew inspiration from? I can’t take the credit. I just took an idea I read on a website and ran with it.

Mmmmm Contract

Well, I got to see Dave’s new pad tonight. Talk about PHAT! On the plus side, it’s close to home. We’ll be hanging out this weekend so I’m looking forward to it. I’m really glad he moved back nearby so we can hang out again.

In other news, I’m signing my contract tomorrow. After the fiasco last time I went to sign one, I’m waiting until my name is on the dotted line to take a breath. My final class of ED570 is tomorrow (or today depending). I have almost everything done that I need for the class. I’ve just got a book report to do. It shouldn’t take long. The lesson plans to go with it are also a cakewalk.

Contract

Ok, got everything set up now. I sign my contract tomorrow at 11 AM. In other news I have quite a bit of schoolwork to finish today. When that is done I can take a deep breath and relax.

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As I sit in sobriety
I reminisce about the future
and uncertainty

The infinite possibilities that appear to me
Slowly my skin begins to bleed as
I am found wanting

What? I do not know
This battle I must undergo
Before I am dragged undertow

Seeing futures without dead ends
My thoughts begin to mend
What ideas and dreams become fused

Fearing nothing; accepting my fate
Nothing will become second rate
Heat engulfs the state

Knowing how I fall ;Knowing how I fail
Leaning against the wall
The only thing saving me is the rail

Self preservation of the strangest kind
The melancholic splendor of the sublime
I now have plenty of time

You take away everything
I take nothing
My pride is reborn through the evil that scorns

Nothing is more important than what I have
I will never give in to a gnave
My life is reborn

A phoenix rising from the ash
I know that I am not last
Regaining the power I once had

Forfeiting everything for what I am
You act like you know me
Sharing what you think of me

Living like a king
Sitting on the phoenix wing
Nightmares become waking dreams

Nothing is obscene
I have the pride of living
The power in my heart sets me free

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Choking tears back of confused splendor
I look forward to the new endeavor
If I can just get to that point
I can leave this wretched joint

Everything that people tell me
Is all just a lie
I need to get away
Then I can take that deep breath
And let my imagination fly

Injured pride; now tis not the time
For now I will continue to rhyme
Until it gets back on stride
So my work can be completed
My mind is fully mended

Now it is time for the body to cure
Fix my arm that I injured before
Seeing this wound my flesh swells
Drowning in pain
There is nothing left that hasn’t already
gone down the drain.

Purity of Balance

Without evil there cannot be good
Without war there cannot be peace

Why do the two always meet?
Conflict brings the pain to create
It is such a natural trait
To love, hate, destroy what in in front of me.

Lies and truth will have to wait
As I follow what I think
Listening to who I think you are
And I realize that I am no longer what you think I am

Can you see the blinding light?
Will you ever see that I do not want to fight
I am not walking this earth blind
You will never find the answer.

Looking around the world in pain
Nobody is at fault and nobody is insane
Some just see things in a different way
Thousands of thoughts flood through my brain.

I can’t convince myself on how to live
I don’t think you can understand
why I am am back again
I won’t tell anyone else what to do

Now sitting under a dark glistening sky
I stop trying to understand why
Why I cannot do what I want to
What enslaves me to the throne

The kingdom is mine to take
The faults of the past will not let me break
Hate and love are at the root of life
But the truth is they do not exist

Figments of the human happenstance
False emotions bring things such as bliss
Why? I don’t know
Crack my skull open so that the truth shows

Hiding away deep in the center
My brain is all that is left
These thoughts are like a cancer
There is no way to find the answer.

Went Away

I loved you but you went away
It’s not my job to save the day
I’m as human as the next man
Fuck everyone who has a master plan.

I’m not one to disobey what he thinks
It’s funny how a girl falls for one who winks
I will never be discriminant again
All that I have known has fallen

Harps and whistles are my chords
Friends fill their stomachs until they have gorged
Until they are full
I realize that I am unstoppable.

Challenges are now at hand.
No, I refuse the one night stand
I look for someone who is bright
At this point nobody stands in the light

If fucking was my game I could play
Then I’d realize how I am now insane
It’s not something I want to game
Or else there would only be me to blame

Drinking and bowling can be so much fun
Even when there isn’t vodka or rum.
Pardon any pun
But there is nobody who can keep up with me;
No one.

Beer & Bowling

Well, it’s amazing. As a night goes on beer gets cheaper by the pitcher when drinking and bowling. We had a total of 11 pitchers between 4 of us. I followed Joe home (who was swirving a bit). I guess he’s puking now since I was talking to his roommate and I heard the spewage in the background. On the plus side everyone made it home in one piece.

I have a shit ton of homework to finish before thursday. Hopefully I finish it.

Productive?

Videogames, Shark Week, pizza and iced tea. These are things for this productive day I see. Nothing happened to keep me busy. Nothing to allow me the ability to avoid anything long term that bothers me.

Now the week of productivity begins. I hope it goes by fast. Tuesday I sign my contract and I pray that it lasts.

The Day the World Disappeared

The day the world went away
I stood and stared
Looking at all the people in the fray
Their thoughts and goals were impaired

Wretched battles spread across the horizon
Not physical but mental strain
I search for myself once again
Forgetting where I have already searched

On the peak of the mountain the few are pearched
For the best seats in the house
The past slowly crumbles
And the earth lurched

When matter dissolves into powder
The few sit and wonder
Where will we go from here
When the world has completely disappeared.

Battles fought and both sides lost
They thought they could win
They didn’t matter what the cost
Pools of water form once again

The gravel of the earth turns to liquid
People stop what they are doing;
Slowly becoming livid
Their world is gone without their knowing

The heart of the earth is now showing
as everyone passes on to the other side
Crevices of the world are hundreds of miles wide
Molten magma rises glowing

The world is gone
Nobody really cares
It disappeared before
It will come again

Preminition?

I had a dream last night; well in the early morning that shook me pretty hard. It was very strange. I dreamed that I was playing a progressive slot machine and won the jackpot for just a little over $581,000. Needless to say that if I see a progressive with that jackpot, I’ll play the hell out of it.

Almost a Combatant

Well, after a night with the guys I went to Star Mart to fill the Neon up. While there I ran into some other friends. Roach, this stupid ass fuck from high school flicked a match and it sat right on my chest. I brushed it off and got in his face. He didn’t back off. At that point he was trying to move me back so I pushed him with my good hand and tossed him about 5 feet or more. Then the stupid fuck wanted to continue to talk trash that he can’t back up. Finally he left after making comments about having the "white man’s pass" and other shit. All I was thinking was this stoner jackass doesn’t know what he’s getting himself into. Everyone else there agreed with what I did 100%. The ass deserved it. Finally, he came back saying how he’s never done shit to me and blah blah blah. I just ignored him. He was talking about how he is educated and this and that trying to pull the race card. When he did that I shouted at him in Spanish and he had no clue about what I said. Screw stupid people. In my book, all true idiots deserve to die.

The Game

On this planet that we call earth
There are many people who will come forth
to play a silly game with the fairer sex
I say fuck it and leave that to the rest.

Playing games is not my thing
I don’t do anything that I don’t mean
Hiding in flashes of obsidian light
Not to many others know my fight.

Few and far between are women that I like
When I meet one again I will be like a venomous snake about to strike
Scary as it sounds I know in a few moments
If in my sleep my mind would spin doughnuts

Around the dame that I am talking to
That way makes it easy enough for me... not to be fooled
By the candy of the eyes that many women make
Someday just someday I will once again partake.

Seeing things through my eyes and how people play the game
I do not find anything of interest
I’m not even fooled by the temptress
I just find the whole thing lame.

Wild Shit

Well, just got home. We were at Joe’s apartment tonight. They won’t be living there for much longer. I guess that the parents have signed the divorce papers. I don’t know what is going on and I don’t fucking care. People should just keep their shit to themselves and keep everyone else out. I should be signing a contract for work soon. Once that is done and IF SNR takes off I say fuck the world. I’ll be doing well.

All Day

Well, I have just returned home. I have been out drinking all day. Here is how it all started:

I began to clean my room and got a good part of it done. I need to rearrange it to make better use of space so that I can hook up the scanner. Steve called. We went to lunch since he called off work. Following that we went to the grocery store so that he could buy ingredients to make salsa (which still hasn’t been made). We also bought some beer. We sat in his yard all day drinking beer until around 5:30. At that point, we went to visit everyone at Sam’s Club. They weren’t off work yet. So, after that trip we visited Chad’s dad and helped get the boat ready for the river trip. When everyone else got off work, we found out that Joe & Chris are evicted from their apartment in 30 days. Talk about lovely. So, we went to D’s place for a while, drank, watched TV, and read the book of funny. It has been a fairly productive day when in regards to doing nothing.

SNRgear.com and gildemontes.com are registered. I just have to wait for them to update and I’ll be all set. I can thank one person for being such a bitch that it gave me my newest revised outlook on life. With it I’m sure to make a bundle of dough.

I’ll be leaving for the river friday evening or at the butt crack of dawn on saturday. All that is left are a few errands I need to run and my fucking class. Heh, it’s time for bed. Fuck you all and good night.

---Pick up Line 78 (from the book of funny)---
Can I flirt with you?

Stuff

Well, I’m getting a haircut when I get up. Besides that, I need to get some new board shorts and some sandals for the trip to the river. This is a vacation that I’m really looking forward to. I put in the request with Dave to get snrgear.com and gildemontes.com so I’ll have things online put in proper order.

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Drifting in a starry night sky
I sit and ask myself why
Everything happens so fast

I knew that bitch wouldn’t last
There was hope for a future that never was

Sitting hiding, through the mud you drudge
Everything that was truth and jaded into fiction
There is only one true evil; that which is addiction
That draws you in so close

I am truly the one who can see the most.
Blinded by darkness others howl;
At the sky, at the moon, at the hooded cowl

Of those who knew better long ago
Before there were rulers in a powerful empire
called Rome

Sitting close to the fire
I stare into the flames burning with desire

This desire remains unnamed.
This desire remains untold.

I just sit and wait for it all to unfold
Hopefully before the day I become old.

Upon my mantle my ideas are framed
There is truly nothing that can be tamed
But me
But you

But anything that wears a shoe
Who needs you?
Pick up your body you odd little shrew

Smack me with words once again and
I will bitch slap you.

Violence; it’s not me
Everybody should sit and drink green tea

They know who there is to be
All I know is completely crazy.

Fighting for what is right is nothing to do
You know that is what I used to do.
Suddenly in a dream one night I flew
Away, distant acrossed the stars

There I hoped to forget you
It’s true; oh, it’s true
This neverending story for me
Has nothing to do with me

No matter how hard I try I can’t get it out of my mind
Unfortunately for me,
It all revolves around you.

Fuck you.

Intoxicated Splendor

Hiding every truth to those who do persist
Looking away from my heart and the pain
I do know that there is nobody to blame.

Seeking truths that are uncertain
There is nothing to hide, nothing to pertain
To what there is in this world
I remember that one night when I made Darren hurl.

Zipping acrossed the stars in a slingshot
This one stupid bitch asked for a rimjob

Looking for stupidity I would not have a problem
It’s everywhere; somebody I guess will want to love them.

Fighting to prove that might doesn’t make right
I sit and ponder because I do not want to fight
There are many ways that this story could end
I know that the one that is least likely is what will happen;

If not we can always pretend
This is what there was
Steve decided not to be a part of the \"fuzz\"

Those who know me know better than to call me coz
I’m the meanest motherfucker that there ever was.

Centaur of my life

Playing with words it getting to be easy
Most the girls I’ve met lately are sleazy

Hiding in rhyme is my mind
Forever to everyone it is truly unkind.

Slowly my pace is comming back
Yeah, some of them need to be cut a little slack

But I’m not one to do it
They need to show me or prove it

Idiocy in my language is persisting
Most people will never know what they are missing

Agony in my heart that did swell
Has subsided, now ring that dinner bell

Because lunch is served and it’s me
Everything has eaten away my insanity.

Looking for an answer searching everywhere
Terry has once again covered himself in nair.

Just remember the trust I once had in humanity
Maybe you can remind me and it’ll keep my civility.

Stupid Bitches

Well, since I’ve been the DD for Chad lately, he wanted me to get wasted tonight. Well, that didn’t exactly happen. However, I did have fun punking some stupid little girls that David invited to the apartment. It was well worth it. Sometime this week I should be getting my contract to sign for work.

In other news, SNR logos have been under design approval for us (consensus by the group); and Anna, your logo needs to be scanned in the computer but don’t worry, I’ve got it :-)

Weekend

I went dirtbike riding this weekend. It was fun. This coming weekend I’ll be in Parker.

Job

I have a job now. Obviously Dave must have fixed the switch. I will be teaching Art at Arroyo High School in San Bernardino. One of my mom’s professors was there because his daughter was up for the position as well.